I'm sitting here staring at the computer trying to find the words to say.
I've got no funny witticisms to share or Scriptures to encourage today. I've got ugly truth.
Yesterday, I got a call from Garrett's pediatrician with results from his CPK test. His levels were very high, which indicates that he does in fact have muscular dystrophy.
I can't go into details, as I'm sure you'll understand. Please pray for Garrett and us as these are uncharted waters.
I'm not necessarily ready to talk about it, so please understand if I send your calls to voice mail. Also know that I still need to know you are praying, because I can't pray myself right now. I'm at a place where I have nothing to say to God, and that is a first.
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Amber, I prayed so hard that Garrett's test would come back negative - for some reason, this was not the plan that God has. I do understand your frustration, but try not to be angry with God - remember, he sees the BIG picture. Remember that God allows us to go through certain things that are not our ideal, but they are always so that He will be glorified! He may use you to minister to other moms who ha, ve a child going through this. Instead of allowing this to get the best of you, anchor to your faith and let others see that even when faced with hardship, you can remain strong IN THE LORD!! I love you and your whole family so much and I will continue praying for you! Here are some of the words to a song that encourages me:
What Faith Can Do by Kutless
"Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
Overcome the odds
http://www.elyricsworld.com/what_faith_can_do_lyrics_kutless.html
You don't have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise!
p.s. If you need anything, let me know - I'm only an email or a phone call away!
I have been praying for you, Garrett, and Randy since we talked today. I don't have the right words to say--- so I won't say anything but I love you!
I am praying.
I don't have any words for you either, and I hardly know what to pray. My heart is aching for all of you. Know this: Romans 8:26 says that even when you don't know what to pray, the Spirit intercedes. You don't have to say anything at all to God--He still hears.
I'm praying, with a heavy heart.
Amber, Please know that my family is praying with you and that our hearts are broken for you all. I can't imagine what you are going through....May God put His arms around your family and bring comfort to your hearts. Our church family will have special prayer tomorrow night for you....we will all continue to pray. Prov. 3:5-6.
HUGS to you,
Love, Terri
Amber,
I go to TSC with you. I am praying for you right now and your sweet boy.
Amanda
I just saw the update from Michelle on Facebook and I am also praying. I cannot imagine what you are going through but I am praying I Pet 5:7 and Isaiah 41:10. I am so sorry you all are having to go through this. (And this is Gretchen from BA).
Amber,
I too have little to say...I totally understand not being able to talk! I am here if you need me but know that me not calling you is my way of giving you time. I am praying daily!
Love,
Beth
Amber and Randy,
My heart breaks for all of you. Please know that I'm praying and my class at TSC also is praying. If you and Randy need a break to have some time alone, please let me know. The girls and I will be more than happy to babysit.
Julie Thompson
I saw you on Sumer's list of blogs. Know that we in Alabama are praying for you as well.
This is Jennifer Egbert Ryser, not expecting that you would recognize the name. Amber, words cannot explain what my heart feels for you right now. In December 2008, our second son died of an undetected heart defect. We only had him for 5 days, but that does not lessen the love we had for him. I feel like I have been to the dark side and back. I have been at that numb speechless point and I have been to the other side where you hold nothing back. I have not searched your blog site extensively to look for your address, but I would love to send you a copy of the cd we had made from the music at our son, Cooper's funeral. It has ministered to my soul on the tough days, like nothing else has. It has also been an encouragement to others. We will be praying! I'm not sure if I could be a help or not but if I could feel free to call day or night 812-208-7927.
I know that was a hard post to write, Amber. And even though words escape you, the spirit intercedes for you and God promises that He will never leave you nor forsake you (even when you don't want Him around).
You have been on my mind constantly, and I am praying without ceasing for you, Garrett, and the rest of your family.
Amber and Randy,
My heart has been so heavy for you since I spoke with Donnie on Monday afternoon at Mike's house. Please know that you and your sweet families (especially Garrett) are in our thoughts and prayers. We are trusting God for a miracle and praying for peace that passes all understanding in the meantime.
Much love to you both,
Amy and Chanch Edwards
Amber,
I read the note about your son Garrett. So sorry to hear of this news - God is still in control & He loves you & your family so much. Not sure what God will teach you through this experience, but know He does all things well. Romans 8:28 Love to you, Amber. Praying for strength and healing. We serve a mighty God!
Amber-
I've been praying daily for you, Garrett, and your family since I saw your facebook link to your blog the other day. As a mom, I can't imagine what you must be feeling. I hope you are able to find some comfort in knowing God is in control. We will be continuing to pray for your family!
Amber and Randy -
I can only imagine how hard it was for you to write this post...I am at a loss of words to comfort you but can tell you Steve and I are pryaing for you all. The verse that comes to mind is Psalm 139 - God knit Garret in your womb and has a plan for his precious life. I know we are far away but will do ANYTHING we can to help, just email or call to ask.
Praying with heavy hearts,
Shelley
I believe God still works miracles everyday! That is what I am praying for...miracles! Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!!
Amber-
There just aren't any words that are sufficient during these difficult days.
A friend of mine says, "Don't doubt in the dark what God has shown you in the light".
I am praying Psalm 23 over your family. May He restore your soul...may His rod and His staff comfort you and may your cup overflow. I pray that goodness and mercy will follow you each and every step of the way.
Asking God for a miracle!
Alicia
Amber, I saw your blog on facebook and linked to it tonight. My heart is so heavy for you and your family tonight. I know there are not any words to comfort such news. Just know that I am praying for you tonight and will continue to keep you in my prayers that God sends your family comfort and strength. This is Karen (Reese)Thomas.
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