A few things about stretching are common knowledge among professionals in my field:
1.) to be effective, stretching must be done on a regular basis;
2.) the stretch must be held for a certain length of time (no one truly knows how long is best), but somewhere between 15 and 30 seconds; and
3.) static stretching is the best form, meaning a LOOONG, prolonged stretch; and some evidence suggests
4.) more than 1 stretch is needed (2-3 times for each particular muscle) at a time.
This is also what God is doing to me. He is stretching my faith in Him, stretching my patience, stretching my limits.
It is not a 1 time stretch, for evidence suggests that this has no lasting results. It is a long, prolonged stretch in order to create a lasting effect in my spiritual muscle which (as soon as I think I can take no more) He stretches a little further each time.
He holds me in this stretch for as long as He chooses, while all the time I think its too long, too hard, too much. But He knows what is best. He knows what it will take to make a permanent change.
I recently had a test to determine if I was the carrier for Duchenne's MD, and my test results came back that the CK levels were within normal limits. I thought that was good news, but as soon as I talked to Garrett's neurologist I was informed that that only lowered my chance of being a carrier to 15-20%. So, on Thursday I go for a DNA test (the same one Garrett had) to make a determination. When we get those results (Garrett's took 6 weeks), we will determine if Charlotte needs to be tested.
Garrett also has his first appointment at the MD Clinic on Thursday. He will have periodic visits to determine how his steroids are working, how his AFO's are going....a general check-up.
This will be the first visit of this type: It will be the first time we are surrounded by other boys with this horrible disease in its varying forms. It will be the first time Garrett comes face to face with others that share his diagnosis. It will the first time Randy and I see exactly what we may encounter in the future.
It will not, however, be the first time God holds our hand. It will not be the first time God realizes that we need Him. It will not be the first time it dawns on God that we are in the middle of this storm and we are desperate for Him.
And while I have a deep fear of the unknown for us, for Garrett; He will not be surprised by anything we encounter.